Archive for February, 2010

Where do I go from here?

Mystery BlanketFor the last oh, about 8 years, I have been a stay at home mom. I was going to school also, earning my degree while raising my 2 kids. But, for the last 3 years, I have been first and foremost a mom. I have an English degree with a minor in Women’s Studies that has sat moldering while my student loans accrue interest. Well that is all about to change. The last few months have been tough on me mentally. My son is going into Kindergarten next fall and my life will change drastically. We can’t afford for me to stay at home anymore, not with the looming debt of my loans and the hope of buying a house in the not-to-distant future. I have tried my hand at a few different “projects” during these years without any real effort going toward them. I recently attained my Substitute teaching license, thinking “great! I can do that and not have to worry about missing days, calling in sick because the kids are sick, and work when I want to!”  That seemed like a good plan right? Well, sure, except that with the economy the way it is, I’m not the only person it seems to have this idea.  I have been told that, sure I can apply, but, well, the lists are full. Ok…so where to next? This is the question that keeps me up at nights, that makes me stress out, neglect my house (because, really, who doesn’t want an excuse to not clean?!),  and spend as much time as I can playing with my kids, reading, and knitting, trying to push it all to the back and ignore the fact Embossed Leaves Socksthat I can’t NOT work for much longer. And my other fallback plan of winning the lottery seems to be less likely than getting into a school district to sub. Recently, I made a list of what I would like to do, and what I can do to make that a reality. I have a degree, but no experience. I would love to freelance as a writer, copy editor, or proofreader. I also want to continue my work as a designer. The 3 C’s are what I know: Crafts, Children, Creativity. I also know the Big P: Procrastination. Now, some people look at procrastination and think it’s a bad thing. For me, procrastination is what lights the fire under my ass and makes me work hard. My procrastination for the last 3 years is what is making me realize that if I don’t want to get a 9-5 and have to worry about taking days off of work to stay home with sick kids, buying new clothes that I can actually go to a “real” job in, and missing my entire Summer of kids, then I need to forget all about that aspect and focus on what I love. Get my name out there. Set time aside everyday, even if it’s at 10:00 at night and I am ready to crawl into bed, to work on my dream. So that is where I go from here. I have 6 months to prove to myself, and my husband (who has been nothing but supportive of my myriad adventures into the creative workforce) that I CAN do this. 6 months to show that I have a future in what I love. Now, I am not unrealistic in this. I am fully prepared for tons of disappointment, rejections, and frustrations. And that’s ok, because if raising kids has taught me anything, it is that life is full of frustrations and rejection, and plans falling into the abyss, as well as tons of fun, happiness, mistakes, conquests, scrapes and tears, and a million do-overs. So how’s that for experience? There’s nothing that the workforce can throw at me that is tougher to deal with than what 7 years of kids has thrown at me. I am armed with a pot of coffee, an organized desk, a checklist, and determination. I’m ready to work…at home.

Pictures: The Procrastination Mystery Blanket of my own design, started in 08 and recently picked back up.

Embossed Leaves Socks from the Favorite Socks book, started in the spring.

The Forthcoming pattern that my kids have named The Snow Club Hat. I am finishing up the pattern and will have it released by the start of the Olympics.

For all those who have thought about buying a pattern, now is the time!  50% of all profits from pattern sales are going to Doctors Without Borders (MSF) at least through the end of February, to help in Haiti. And even if you don’t want one of our patterns, please look on Ravelry through the Help for Haiti Patterns. These are all designers who are pledging part of their profits to Haitian Relief efforts and every little bit helps. You can make a difference and have something beautiful to show for it!


Read Full Post »